We are not cisterns made for hoarding, we are channels made for sharing — Billy Graham
Nearing Home: Life, Faith, and Finishing Well
I am going deeper into meditation by the day. I am able to sleep better, think in a more creative fashion and think positively most of the time. However, I am also having to confront some troubling old memories. I had a brother who succumbed to blood cancer when he was 5 and I was around 8. Sometimes, those wounds open up when I am deep in thought. I have been thinking all this while that my parents shielded me but then I realized I never had an outlet to vent. Also, today I was thinking about some abnormal incidents that happened when I was barely 5 or 6. I am still not sure about the root of that or why I still remember it now.
The effect of meditation has been to open up some painful memories and events that shaped me as a person. I never looked at it that way but I am trying to make sense of my past.
I cannot proceed further today. I will take some time to process all I went through and then let go of it.
Today’s tip : I think humans are a sum total of their experiences. Just like hoarding things that you don’t need is not good, hoarding memories that don’t help you is also not good. Be non-judgmental in releasing them out of your subconscious to make way for better memories.